Tuesday 8 January 2013

My Sweet Only in My Dream

this is wat i do right now!!!oh damn,,,,i can't tell wat kind of feel inside my heart..its too complicated

everyone,,,yeahhh,,all people in de world! semue!! x terkecuali,tipu la klu x de minat some1 kn,,
mcm aq jugak,,yeahhh aq akui,,memg aq meminati seseorang,,,dalam diam,,,
aq stalk dy,,,dalam diam,,aq ikot perkembangan dy,,,
de story is began when,,, 

satu ary,, when i was a young girl (perasan jap sbb mse ni 1st sem 1st year) aq duduk kt depan libry,dengan keadaan penat nyer,,kusut nye,,,blurr nyer,,,aq nmpk sekumpulan budak lalu dpn aq,,ouch! aq terpandang some1,,senyuman dy,,,hati aq yg kusot mse tu boleyh tenang,, how sweet he is???aq pon x taw,aq rse mcm dpt tnge blek mse tu,suke,,n sejak dpd tu,aq slalu terserempak ngn orang yg sme,,yeahh,,tmpt yg same ,,dpn libry,,,yeahhhh,,bile da minat tu,,da tertarik tu,,mulot pon,,,memg x reti dok diam la,,dok kabo kt membe2, x pk pape pon mse tu,,smpi di takdir kn,,aq makin rapat n berpeluang kenal ngn budak tu,,,but,,,banyak sngt halang nk kwn ngn dy,,,juz nk kawan je,,x sangke halangan byk mcm ni sekali,,betol la orang kate,,menunggu ni,,buat kite rindu,,,bile rindu,,kite mule stalk,,sbb nk taw perkembangan dy,,n stat dpd situ,aq taw aq minat kt dy,,,ye,,,aq minat,,,harapan aq cume satu,,berpeluang tok bhgie,,ade ukhwah persahabatan,,tu pon da cukop,,buat kenang kenangan,,x mintak pon dy bg aq cincin n melutut lamar aq,,
but now,,,semakin hari aq makin penat tunggu dy,,y??? membe aq kate,,dy bukan jodoh aq!! kene pelan2 lupe kn dy,,hurm,,,tp,,,susah,,sbb aq cume mampu tok ingt kt dy,,,tu je,,x mintak lebih pon,,n aq bukan nk canang yg aq minat kt dy pon,,cukop la sekadar aq taw ape dlm hati aq,,n dy trime aq kwn ngn dy,sbb dy ikhlas nk kwn ngn aq,,bukan sbb dy kesian atau simpati,,yg aq ni mcm terkejar2 kn dy,,dan aq x maw dy lari dpd aq,,sebab dpt crite aq minat kt dy,,yerrr,,,memg aq minat kt dy,,tp,,,tu bukan bererti aq membiarkan dy dengar kabar angin yg aq suke dy,,aq nk dy slese ngn kehidupan dy,,n x maw aq mengganggu otak dy(baik kn aq),,,tp dlm mse yg sme,,,im also care about my pride!! tu care aq! kalau aq minat org,aq x maw org tu taw,seboleh2 aq akan selindung rase hati aq,,aq cinte org bgai nk mati pon,,bia aq mati sbb menanggung rase cinte aq kt some1,,dpd dy taw yg aq cinte kn dy,,pelik ea??? ye,,,x semue org pk mcm mane yg aq pikir,,tp tu lah diri aq,,,aq x marah,,bahkan suke klu org mengage aq ngn dy,,tp,,,jgn la smpi dy taw,,,n now,,,im touched giler2 babi!! sebab aq stresss,,memikirkan,,ape la yg dy cakap n pk pasal aq,,rase mcm nk buang je rase suke,,rindu n seme tu dpd aty aq,,,paham x??? boley bayang kn x ape yg aq rase sekarang ni,,,yerr,,,memg aq touching,,,coz it touch my pride!! pride yg aq slalu jage tu,,rase mcm dah musnah,,,

da la azie,lupe kn je la,ape yg terjadi,,anggap ni mimpi buruk jer,,,,boley??? (with fake smile)
mungkin ni petande dpd Allah,,yg aq sepatotnye x ley simpan rase kt some1,,yg dekat di mate,,tapi jauh,,x susah pon azie,,lupe kan je,,,ye,,ko pasti boleyh,,tp bile nk dpt hasilnyer???????
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!
x lme lg cuti,,aq dok santai2 kt uma,,kompem la aq pk dy kn????
cakap senang la,,,tp hati???sape je yg taw???
okeyh,,penat dah,,,ye,,,aq penat,,penat tunggu ko,,penat minat kt ko,,,
memg aq bahagie,,,tp x berbaloi ngn ape yg aq rase sekarang! 

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